Destini left to live with my mother in a very heated, volatile departure and 3 mos later we had been drug into court for custody. A year later, my mother now gets a nice fat paycheck of $500/mo from us and my daughter got her way. Gotta love how the court system inadvertently lets teenagers manipulate families. But in the end, everyone seems to be happier. Destini got what she wanted and Dakota and Demi no longer have to live with the domestic violence (yes, that's what it was!). I don't speak to my mother, and Steve can finally stop feeling like people are trying to rip me away from him. Yes, I think it was best for everyone in the end.
I finally followed through with my commitment of going back to school. I just finished up my first class with an "A". I must say it's been an awesome thing for my ego. I can't honestly say I gave a 100%. Reminds me of high school. Yes, you're reading that right, I'm gloating about my academic excellence. Hell, no one else is gonna say, "Damn, Addie, you're one smart cookie!" I think they call it self-affirmation ;)
This year Steve and I will be celebrating our 10 year anniversary. Anyone that has been by our sides over any part of the last 10 years knows that this is a huge milestones. With so much meddling from outsiders, somehow we managed to stick by each other through it all and I think we've are finally over the hump where we can actually start to enjoy marriage instead of spending our time and energy fighting off the bull shit. I don't think I could ever love someone as much as I love him. He is my rock and I know that he loves me no matter what - even in my yoga pants and hair-bun with a plate of cheesecake in my face. I gotta limit that cheesecake though or he might nick-name me his little cheesecake, and not after the dessert.
Work is great. After about 6 months of struggling through all the personal B.S. I was finally able to go to work and actually focus. It's amazing how much more you like your job when you feel like you're actually doing well at it. But, me being the one who is never satisfied with the status-quo, I've decided to start working towards a transition into a Loan Consultant. So hubby lures me into Mortgage Lending in 2004 after 10 years in veterinary medicine, and here I am....while he is getting ready for law school...go figure.
Ok - had to save the best news for last. And only a select number of people know about this, so if you read my blogs, you're one of the lucky ones ;) For years, I always longed to have a child with Steve. For years, he was "content with the girls we have". While I respected that, and even cherished it (because he's a diamond in a ruff taking on a women with 3 kids already), my heart still longed to experience the treasure of having a child together. Now, mind you that after 10 years, I had all but given up on the idea. I never wanted to pressure him, but I certainly couldn't ignore the deep longing in my heart. So I kept it to myself - for the most part - when I could. In January, we were at a bar watching a game and the topic came up. Long story short, he said to me, "if you really want one that bad and it will make you happy, then we will". Let this be a testament - because for years and years I prayed to God that somehow, someway he would change my husband's heart. There were many times I had all but given up and figured God had other plans. But this was the one time I knew His answer was never "no"....just "not yet".
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